Day 11: Things That Make You Scared

Hmm...long list.

1. Spiders. And insects of any kind. Really, the only bugs that don't totally freak me out are butterflies, lady bugs, fireflies, and dragon flies. And that's cos they're pretty.

2. The unknown. I hate not knowing things, I hate going into new situations and not knowing exactly what to expect and how to react. I don't do well when I don't know what's coming, I get really anxious and tense and upset.

3. The future. It kinda goes with the previous one, cos mostly what scares me about it is that I don't know how it's gonna turn out. But I'm also excited for it too.

4. Being alone. Not momentarily, but in the long run. 

5. Car crashes. Yep.

6. Losing loved ones. Self explanatory.

7. FROGS. Those creepy little buggers freak me right out. I can't stand to even look at pictures of them. Cartoon frogs are fine, sometimes even cute, but real ones... ugh.

8. The dark. Or, what's in it that I don't know about.

9. Failure. Also self explanatory. And disappointing people. As in, being a disappointment to people.

10. Singing in front of people. Freaks me right out. And to think, I used to want to do that as my career. Really rational, that. 

11. Pain. I don't like being in pain. Obviously.

Yeah, that's about it, I suppose. Lots of things freak me out.

The Windy City

I love Chicago!

And I had such an amazing time there this weekend. We had a really scary ride to the train station on Saturday morning, but after that, it was smooth sailing indeed. The train was lovely, and I definitely plan on traveling by it more often.

We went shopping for the first few hours, and had lunch at Noodles & Co. which is now my favorite restaurant. I'm preparing to google the nearest destination as we speak. And I bought a bunch of stuff at Forever 21, including an awesome hat and scarf combo.

We stayed at the Congress Plaza Hotel, and it was amazing. It's super old, having been built in the late 1800's. The architecture and decor were amazingly beautiful, as in all the old buildings in Chicago.

They have a gorgeous old ballroom that's been in movies and stuff that's called the Gold Room. We ended up sort of breaking into it, but it's a testimony to how nice the people at that hotel were that the guy that apprehended us offered to turn on the lights and show us around. It was awesome. Although I'm still convinced they're hiding something in that wing of the hotel, it was dark and mega-creepy.

After a while, we went down to the lobby to catch a cab to the Cheesecake Factory for dinner. Steve, the ever helpful concierge, asked if we needed a taxi, and where we were going. When we told him, he asked a man that he'd been talking to if he'd take us, and the guy nodded, and then asked us if we wanted to take a stretch limo for $5 a person. The answer was a resounding heck yes, so we piled into the white stretch limo and relaxed for what was definitely the classiest couple of miles of my life. 

After we had dinner, my aunt and I went to the Oriental Theatre to see Mamma Mia! which was totally awesome, and I loved it.

The next day, we saw the Bean, which was trippy, and walked all the way out to Navy Pier. Two and a half miles. Phew. But we saw adorable penguins there, so it was totes worth it.

The whole trip was awesome, and even though I'm totally sleep deprived, I kinda wish I were still there.

Day 10: 3 Things You Are Proud Of About Your Personality

Err...


Umm.. I know this one...


Okay, well, I'm proud of the fact that I'm smart. Yep. I'm all for being demure (*cough* no self confidence *cough*), but I should probably just embrace it. I'm a smart kid.


I'm proud of my creativity and my general artsyness. Like theatre, and stuff like that.


I'm proud that I'm a nerd, and that I know how to laugh and have fun and be insane, because life is so much more fun that way. I'm proud that I don't care too awfully much about what most people think of me. Just the ones that matter. 


Erm...that's it, I guess.

Day 9: The Best Thing to Happen to Me This Week

Hmm... the best thing to happen to me all week? I would have to say it's something that hasn't happened yet.


Tomorrow morning, I'm leaving to take a train to Chicago for the weekend for my graduation trip. While I'm there, I'm going to see the musical Mamma Mia too, which is mega exciting.


I'm so jazzed for this trip. Obviously, I mean, I just used the term jazzed. 


I'm gonna go to H&M, and the Cheesecake Factory, and Water Tower Place, and... ooh, Tiffany's! I'm soooooo excited for Tiffany's. Not that I can afford anything there, but it's exciting just to be there.


I can't wait for the trip. Chicago is one of my favorite places ever, and I haven't been there in over four years. So, yeah, mucho excitemento. I'm pretty sure that's not actual Spanish.


Buh-bye.

I NEED THEATRE

At this point during the year, I should be diligently and frantically working on the winter show for my theatre company.


I am not doing that at this time.


Due to our difficulties at the beginning of the year, we're behind schedule, and only doing one mainstage show this year. The Children's Theatre crowd are working on their performance of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (which I'm really excited about). But I have to wait until the end of February until anything starts up for me really.


AND I THINK I'M GOING CRAZY.


I have nothing to do. It's driving me nuts. I'm inexplicably frustrated for no reason. I feel like I have no sense of purpose, no usefulness. I go home, I watch the same shows, I do the same things, at the same time. No variation. Nowhere to be and nothing to do.


I'm going mad. I've come to the conclusion that I'm literally having theatre withdrawal.


I miss the mad rehearsals, and the early mornings, and late nights, and sleep deprivation, and crazy inside jokes, and costumes, and character shoes, and all that other good stuff. I'm sure in a couple of months, I'll be all like, Hey, remember when we didn't have theatre, and got a normal amount of sleep and didn't feel tired all the time? Yeah, haha, funny.


But seriously, I need a hit of my drug. O___O


'Kay, I'm done ranting. I'm gonna go to bed now.

Day 8: A Date I Would Love To Go On

I don't know why, but ever since I was a little girl, I always thought that the most romantic thing ever would be to go ice skating at Rockefeller Center around Christmas-time, when their massive Christmas tree is all lit up, and it looks so festive and pretty.

I really dunno why that's always been my epitome of the best date ever, it just has. I guess because when I was little, I really, really loved Christmas, and I've always wanted to go to New York. I've also always wanted to go see the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade.


I really hope someday this will happen. It's something I've always wanted to do, ever since I can remember.


Which is weird, cos I can't really ice skate. Whatever, minor technicality.


P.S. I got this picture here: http://www.andykazie.com/keyword/decorations/1/1615804451_z3ckJtc#!i=1615804451&k=z3ckJtc. Don't wanna be infringin' on anyone's rights. Plus it's a cool picture, and deserves credit. And Blogger couldn't recognize the URL. :P

Day 7: Your Current Relationship

I've been dating my current boyfriend for a year and four months. Which sometimes seems like a crazy long time, and other times seems like it's completely flown by.


But either way, it's been the most wonderful year and a quarter of my life.


I like him a lot. He's a wonderful person; he understands me, sometimes when I don't even understand myself, and he makes me laugh, and he supports me no matter what, and he makes me feel like a better person.


He's the Remus to my Tonks, and the peanut butter to my jelly, and a whole host of lovely euphemisms such as that.


He's pretty freakin' awesome.


:3

Day 6: Something You Are Currently Worrying About

Being a generally worrisome person, the correct answer to this question is everything.


However, specific-wise, one thing I've been worried about for a while is college. Obviously. It's kind of front and center in my mind, and it has been all year (and even before that).


My biggest concern is how I'm gonna pay for it. Obviously, I've been applying for all the scholarships I can get my hands on. The FAFSA's not gonna be a super big help for me, and I'm   not really keen on getting a ton of student loans and being way way in debt when I graduate at 22. 


Which at times seems impossibly far away, and other times like it's right around the corner. Though I suppose I ought to focus on graduating high school first.


And I'm worried about classes, and studying, and which dorm to choose, and whether or not what I'm majoring in is going to help me out at all in the real world. I'm freaked about roommates and paying bills and trying to balance out doing too much with not doing enough.


Yep. Exciting times indeed. Stressful, but exciting.

Day 5: The Person You Like and Why You Like Them

The person I like is my boyfriend. Derp. It's only logical.


Then again, I know of a few people that don't use the same kind of logic. But oh well. This post isn't about them.


My boyfriend is a wonderful person. He's sweet, and kind, and caring... Basically, to not repeat myself a kajillion times over, he's everything I wrote about on Day 3, was it? I had him in mind the entire time I was writing that post, so it makes sense.


Anyways, I like him a lot, cos he can be both silly and serious, and we both like British stuff, like Doctor Who, and Sherlock, and obviously, Harry Potter, and we're nerdy together, and it's awesome.


And he always has chocolate.


I like him.


'Kay, bye.

Day 4: 5 Things That Annoy You About the Same Sex/Opposite Sex

5 Things That Annoy Me About Girls:


1. The ones who think it's cute to act like a total idiot.


2. The ones who think they can't actually like anything or have hobbies or anything because that would make them seem nerdy, and therefore unattractive.


3. Backstabbing, petty, shallow, immature ones.


4. Duck face. Enough said.


5. The ones that think they can't do anything without the approval of their friends or their boyfriends, or that think it's absolutely imperative to have the latter.


5 Things That Annoy Me About Boys:


1. The ones that think that you're only a real guy if you like sports, and grunting, and beer, and spitting. Not cool. Let's have some class.


2. The ones that think they're God's gift to women, when they are so clearly not. Or actually, even if they sort of are, if they think that highly of themselves... no.


3. Anyone who qualifies as a douche. You know what I mean.


4. Guys that brag about what they did with whom to their "friends" to look cool.


5. Guys that put girls down to look cool, or who treat girls like crap. See also: cheaters, sexists, and womanizers. 

I Hate Being Sick

I don't really think anyone actually enjoys being sick. If they do, they're weird.


I feel like crap, I'm getting nothing done (not so sure I would be getting stuff done if I didn't feel like crap, but I'm just gonna blame it on the illness), I can't taste or smell anything...blech.


All I've managed to do today is watch most of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2. I watched enough of it, that is, to realize that it was a bad idea to watch it. So I wiped the smeared mascara off my face, sniffled a few more times, and turned it off. Then I organized my DVDs, cos they were scattered all over the place and it was suddenly aggravating my usually dormant OCD.


Now I'm blogging. And after that, I'm gonna eat some ravioli and maybe watch some Doctor Who. 


Yeah!

Day 3: What Type of Person Attracts You?

I need someone who will be nice to me. That's a given, obviously. Everyone needs that.


Someone sweet, and romantic, and that can be spontaneous. But not all the time, because that gives me anxiety issues.


Someone intelligent, with whom I can have intellectual and engaging conversations.


Someone nerdy! Someone who likes Harry Potter, and Doctor Who, and all that good stuff. Or at least someone that can respect that I like that stuff, and make an effort to be involved.


Someone who will support me, and believe in me, no matter how crazy my ideas get. And no matter how many times I say things that start with "when I'm rich and famous..."


Someone with a good sense of humor, that's a must. I need someone who will make me laugh! 


Someone who wants to travel, who shares the same sort of ambitions. And someone who wants a family, eventually. And marriage. I couldn't deal with someone who was afraid of commitment, or something like that.


Someone optimistic, but also realistic. Someone who'll help keep my feet on the ground, but at the same time, who'll go along with my foolish, indulgent, idealistic notions for at least a little while.


Someone who brings me chocolate a lot. I like chocolate.


Most of all, someone who likes me for who I am, and doesn't want me to change. Because I've tried before, and it's probably not gonna happen. I am who I am, craziness, frizzy hair, shrill voice, obnoxious laugh, and all. 


And the best part is? I've already found someone who meets my requirements. :)

Day 2: How Have You Changed in the Past Two Years?

Hmm, I think I've changed a lot in that last two years.


Two years ago, I was in the middle of my sophomore year. All in all, that was a pretty good year for me. I had a lot of fun in theatre, and managed to be in two plays, which I thought was pretty awesome. I made a lot of new friends that year, and met my boyfriend (though I didn't know it then).


Since then, I've grown up a lot. I'm a bit calmer, a bit less frivolous. Sometimes, anyways. I was still kind of a fluttery, obnoxious underclassman then. Now, I'm a senior. Every once in a while I'm still fluttery and obnoxious, but I try to save it for special occasions. 


In the last couple of years, I met my my merveilleuse boyfriend, and have been dating him for one year, four months, and one day. Very specific, I know.


Last year, I had a great part in a wonderful play, and was lucky enough to be able to help out a lot on another absolutely amazing play. I can't believe it's now my last year in theatre; it's surreal.


In the last couple of years, I quit Spanish, learned some French, changed my life goal several times, and finally settled on one that has made me happy.


This year, a lot of time has been spent worrying about college and money and whatnot. Of course, not all of it is worrying; some of it's just planning. It's an exciting, albeit stressful, time.


There have been a lot of ups and downs the past couple of years. I've grown up in many ways, and changed, whether for the better or worse, for good.

Day 1: A Picture of Yourself and Five Facts

1. I'm really short.

2. I've been obsessed with Harry Potter since I was six.

3. I'm a total nerd. And proud of it.

4. I think I broke my wireless mouse this morning. Wah.

5. I'm going to college next year, and am planning on majoring in English and minoring in Journalism, cos I want to be a writer or something.

30 Day Blog Challenge

I stole this from a friend of mine, and I thought it was a good idea, because perhaps it will prevent me from blathering on about unimportant things. Huzzah!



1. A picture of yourself and 5 facts.
2. How have you changed in the past 2 years?
3. What kind of person attracts you?
4. 5 things that irritate you about the opposite sex/same sex.
5. The person you like and why you like them.
6. Something you’re currently worrying about.
7. Your currently relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
8. A date you would love to go on.
9. The best things to happen to you this week.
10. 3 things you are proud of about your personality.
11. Things that make you scared.
12. Your favorite movie.
13. Something that never fails to make you feel better.
14. 10 things about you people don’t really expect.
15. Things you want to say to 5 different people.
16. 10 ways to win your heart.
17. Your religious beliefs.
18. Your dream wedding.
19. Talk about your siblings.
20. If you had a time machine, where would you go?
21. Favorite color.
22. A poem.
23. What would you do if you won a million dollars?
24. A favorite quote.
25. A letter to your best friend.
26. A memory.
27. Tell us about your day.
28. A story.
29. Where do you see yourself in ten years?
30. What changed this month and what you hope will happen next month?

Also, I haven't quite given up on the drawing challenge thingy, I've just decided to post it all at once.

To Do List for 2012

It's a bit late, but oh well.


My To-Do for the new year:

1. Keep motivated.
2. Survive the end of high school/beginning of college.
3. Don't go broke doing the previous!
4. Get a "real" job. 
5. Write.
6. Re-read all the Harry Potter books in order again.
7. Be happy!
8. Stay organized.
9. Download seasons 2-current of Doctor Who (almost there!).
10. Have a backbone.